Suddenly it seems like there are a lot of things I'm not doing this year.
Example 1: Last year I was trying new fruits and vegetables regularly and posting about them. I even joined a CSA and because of that consumed more vegetables than I had thought previously possible for one human being.
This year, no CSA for me. My co-workers Matt and Judy received their first box of the CSA season today. While I was a little disappointed not to have the excitement of pawing through my own box (although, don't get me wrong, I pawed appropriately through their box), I am relieved not to have to figure out how to cook and consume the sheer amount of vegetables contained in that box.
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| This is Matt and Judy's box. How jealous am I of that strawberry haul?? We never saw that amount of strawberries last year! |
Example 2: Next Saturday my two best friends are doing the US Marine Corps Mud Run for the second time. I will be there, but I will be not be a muddy buddy. I'll be on the sidelines cheering them on.
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| Amie and Abi are on the right of this picture. They will be muddy again on Saturday. I will not. |
I have mixed feelings about this. Relief at not having to haul my (now larger) body up and over 10 foot walls and logs and under barbed wire, etc. Sad, that I let myself get to an out-of-shape point where I had to say to my friends, "I physically can not complete this five mile endurance test." Happy, that my weight issues haven't kept Abi and Amie from fielding a fierce team of four to conquer the mud.
The biggest example: Losing weight. In fact, 2012 has been only about gaining. I've lost all momentum, desire, motivation, what-have-you for eating healthy. I don't know what has changed, but I just have no patience or interest in it any year.
Keeping the blog helps me be better at remembering (without writing something down, it flies out of my head in minutes), but it also brings things into sharp focus when I fall behind. I can see a big difference between this year and last year, and it's not just the excess pounds. It's the attitude, etc.
Can you believe I am already thinking about what will happen when I post my July 30 anniversary-of-the-diet picture this July? I can not imagine how sad it will make me to see what will then be four pictures side by side with this year's a significantly larger version of myself? Yet this is not enough motivation. It's too far away.
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| I will be bigger this year. |
I don't mean to be morose. Someone has just stolen my diet mojo. I will get it back someday. But I want to leave you on a happier note, with a motivational picture found on Pinterest to celebrate my second run of the week!
I still maintain that July is very far away. If you give up soda, eat at home more often, continue to run and swim and a few other small things then your July update photo can look completely okay.
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