Books of 2012

It's the last day of the year, which means I can post my annual book list. I read 85 books this year. Many were young adult, which can be a bit slimmer, but I'm proud to say there were a few hefty books on the list, including Les Miserables, Stephen King's 11/22/63, Gone with the Wind, etc.

I've got a list of recommendations at the end, so make sure you scroll all the way through (I know it's a long list!).

I'm always on the hunt for new books. Do you have any favorite books from this year that you can recommend to me? 

1. Maine by J. Courtney Sullivan
2. Caldera by Matt Cousineau
3. Triathlons for Women by Sally Edwards
4. Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter by Seth Grahame-Smith
5. The Art of Fielding by Chad Harbach
6. Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
7. Vienna Prelude by Bodie Thoene
8. Prague Counterpoint by Bodie Thoene
9. Munich Signature by Bodie Thoene
10. The Paris Wife by Paula McLain
11. Jerusalem Interlude by Bodie Thoene
12. Danzig Passage by Bodie Thoene
13. Washington Square by Henry James
14. The Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother by Amy Chua
15. Warsaw Requiem by Bodie Thoene
16. I’ve Got Your Number by Sophie Kinsella
17. Cutting for Stone by Abraham Verghese
18. The Always War by Margaret Peterson Haddix
19. The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin
20. Turnabout by Margaret Peterson Haddix
21. Among the Hidden by Margaret Peterson Haddix
22. Among the Impostors by Margaret Peterson Haddix
23. Among the Betrayed by Margaret Peterson Haddix
24. Among the Barons by Margaret Peterson Haddix
25. Among the Brave by Margaret Peterson Haddix
26. Among the Enemy by Margaret Peterson Haddix
27. Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins*
28. Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins*
29. MockingJay by Suzanne Collins*
30. Among the Free by Margaret Peterson Haddix
31. Crossed by Ally Conde
32. Esperanza Rising by Pam Munoz Ryan
33. Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? by Mindy Kaling
34. 11/22/63 by Stephen King
35. Sarah’s Key by Tatiana de Rosnay
36. The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell
37. A Girl Named ZIppy by Haven Kimmel
38. Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell
39. Homecoming by Cynthia Voight
40. I Remember Nothing by Nora Ephron
41. Children of God by Mary Doria Russell
42. I Feel Bad About My Neck by Nora Ephron
43. Beautiful Ruins by Jess Walter
44. The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald*
45. Bossypants by Tina Fey*
46. Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
47. I’m Not Myself These Days by Josh Kilmer-Purcel
48. Where Am I Wearing?: A Global Tour to the Countries, Factories and People that Make Our Clothes by Kelsey Timmerman
49. Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo
50. Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
51. The Next Best Thing by Jennifer Weiner
52. Then Came You by Jennifer Weiner
53. Size 12 and Ready to Rock by Meg Cabot
54. Gone GIrl by Gillian Flynn
55. Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn
56. Dark Places by GIllian Flynn
57. Scarlett by Alexandra Ripley
58. An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness by Kay Redfield Jamison
59. Uglies by Scott Westerfield
60. Son of Neptune by Rick Riordan
61. Casual Vacancy by J.K. Rowling
62. Pretties by Rick Riordan
63. Scarlet by A.C. Gaughen
64. Ender’s Game by Scott Orson Card
65. Tell the Wolves I’m Home by Carol Rifka Brunt
66. Silver Linings Playbook by Matthew Quick
67. The List by Siobhan Vivian
68. The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien
69. The Red House by Mark Haddon
70. The Giver by Lois Lowry
71. Flirting with Monasticism: Finding God on Ancient Paths by Karen Sloan
72. The Magician’s Elephant by Kate DiCamillo
73. Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster
74. Insurgent by Veronica Roth
75. The Four Agreements
76. The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis
77. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
78. Gathering Blue by Lois Lowry
79. The Messenger by Lois Lowry
80. Son by Lois Lowry
81. Dicey’s Song by Lois Lowry
82. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
83. The Lost Memoirs of Jane Austen by Syrie James
84. Different Seasons by Stephen King
85. Same Kind of Different As Me by Ron Hall and Denver Moore

*Denotes a re-read

Top Recommendations on the Year: (in this order)
Tell the Wolves I’m Home
The Fault in Our Stars
Silver Linings Playbook
11/22/63
The Giver Series by Lois Lowry
Dicey’s Song
The Great Divorce
The Magician’s Elephant (great for kids)
Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children

If you don’t mind slightly disturbing crime dramas, all three of Gillian Flynn’s books (Gone Girl, Dark Places, Sharp Objects) are page turners. Just not recommended for everyone because of the content.

2012 Goals in Review

Last year I spelled out my 2012 goals for you in this blog post. I was a little scared to go check it out today to see how I did, because I knew I had a lot of racing goals and that area of my life kind of went kerplunk this year.  Also, there's the whole "gaining back all of the weight i had lost" deal.  

Turns out it's not too bad. Here is the excerpt from that post:

Racing Goals

• Complete two sprint triathlons this year and perhaps an Olympic distance Tri. (NOPE)
• Run a person record in the 5k (NOPE)
• Run at least one 10k and decide about doing a half at some time in my lifetime (NOPE and NOPE)

Personal Goals

• Try Airobics (CHECK!)
• Paint at least one wall in my house (CHECK!)
• Continue blogging (MOSTLY CHECKED!)
• Get my savings account back to where it should be (CHECKED, but then unchecked when I bought my new computer, working on this again)
• Read at least 60 books (CHECK!)

So this tells us that I completely and utterly failed at racing in 2012, but that I'm pretty well succeeding as a person. And you know what? I'm okay with that.

I'm still thinking about what my goals for 2013 will be, hopefully I'll post them next week as we ring in the New Year.*

*Why is New Year a universally acknowledge proper noun?  Looks to me like two un-proper nouns just jammed together.  Maybe we should all revolt against capitalizing it.

Thankful Thursdays: It's been awhile!

I'm so sorry I have neglected Thankful Thursdays for so long.  I hope to be better about it in the future. But enough of that, let's get down to the business of being thankful.

Today I'm thankful:

That I got spend Christmas with these wonderful people.

I love 'em and I don't get to see them enough.

That we got crafty this Christmas.

My sister and Dad stepped up to help me create these wonderful things: top left: tree paintings with button embellishments; top right: a giant flower for an empty wall in Mandy's house; bottom right: an iphone charger from a copy of Bossypants*; bottom left, a book safe (all credit goes to my dad on this one, he spent hours carving it for me)*


 That I got some wonderful new pictures to hang on my walls.

 Both have positive messages to start the new year with and look great in my house!

That Les Miserables was as spectacular as I hoped it would be.

I read the book this summer. All (or most) of the 1400+pages and I'm so glad I did. I'd never seen the musical on stage before, and the movie lived up to all of my expectations.

I feel like there are lots of other things I should be listing here in my first Thankfulness list in AWHILE, but I'm a little car-lagged (I just made that phrase up...like jet-lagged, but tired from driving. Kapesh?)

Merry Christmas!

*Please note that my nightstand holds four books now: Kings and Queens of England and Scotland (not pictured), The Making of Pride and Prejudice, my Bossypants book charger and Richard Foster's Prayer.  I'm nothing if not eclectic.

**I will never tell you which of my many books is now the home for my treasured possessions. Don't try to make me. It won't work.  Unless you're one of the handful of people who I told before I realized the security threat that posed to my treasures. If you're one of those people, please don't reveal the book safe's identity.

2012 in Review

I may have overdone it last year with the Year-in-Review posts.*  I do love a good year-in-review, but perhaps it's not necessary to have five separate posts on the subject.**

I've decided to start bestowing titles to my years.  

2010 would be the "Year of the Weight Loss."

2011 would be the "Year of Adventure"

2012 would be the "Year of the Book."***

While this year hasn't been quite as thrill seeking or quite as skinny as 2011, it still had some some truly wonderful memories.  Here are the top bits of 2012 (in no particular order):

I started actually tackling projects that I pin on Pinterest.  This was the first of many!

One of my most favorite cousins, Sarah, got married.  Sarah is the same age as me and we've been great friends, despite a large geographical distance, since we became pen pals around the 3rd or fourth grade. I'm so happy for her and happy I got to see my extended family this year (it doesn't happen every year).

In 2012 I discovered my love for race cheering, cheering at my friend Kristy and my brother Todd's first half marathons (pictured, respectively, below.  When done correctly, this can be the most fun way to spend a Saturday morning. 

In 2012, the remaining members of my girls high school small group graduated from high school.  I love them, and I'm so glad we've remained close.

My whole family was together for Thanksgiving. This doesn't happen often, so I feel extra blessed on years like this one.  I love my family.

I was a quarter for Halloween!  Prob not one of my favorite costumes, but memorable, nonetheless!

My friend Amie instituted a weekly group dinner at her house with my favorite people.  Easily the best night of the week.

I joined the choir! I feel like I've found my calling in life! (PS, I'm dead center in the slightly blurry picture below)

I achieved my dream of racing in a tutu at the color run!

My friends and I made a tribute to this greatest Harry Potter video. Skip to the 1:05 mark if you want to bypass us taking forever to get ready.

Last but not least, my friends and I made the BEST CALL ME MAYBE video EVER!
If you haven't seen it, watch it a few hundred times. I'd still like to get our views up to 1,000.

What was great for you in 2012?? I'd love to know!

*You can find them here, here, here, and here, if you're into reviewing Year-in-Reviews from previous years.

**Although, 2011 was a spectacularly good year.

***I've read 81 books thus far in 2012. More on that later.

Anatomy of a slide

It was a great week and half of WW.

I was doing well, eating healthier, but not totally going cold turkey on higher fat foods I love. I was extremely happy and felt good about working towards a goal again.

Then something happened last Thursday, and I lost all ability to stick to the plan. I was extremely hungry that day. You know, one of those "hollow days" where no matter what you eat you feel like a bottomless pit.

I rode it out okay on Thursday.  I had eggs and turkey sausage for dinner and that helped fill me up and stay within my points for the day.

But Friday was another "hollow day," combined with stress city, and suddenly I was done trying.  I got donuts for breakfast, which is never, ever a good solution because you can never fit them in with whatever calorie- or points-counting diet you're doing.  (Plus, I can hear my mom now, "Stop eating donuts, you don't want diabetes!" which is true, I don't want diabetes.)  I made it through the day okay, but when I got home I had Kraft Macaroni and Cheese for dinner, to feed my bad mood.  I told myself that it was better than going out for fast food, which is true, but it just doesn't work well with your points values when you had donuts for breakfast. Then later I had wine and chocolate cake at a friend's house.*

Saturday, I made it most of the day okay, until I got really hungry in the afternoon and had nothing good to snack on (I hadn't been to the grocery store this week yet) so I ate peanut butter straight out of the jar**. After that I was disappointed in myself and went to Zaxby's for dinner, which does not fix things, it just added lots of points onto lots of points.

By Sunday, I was disappointed in myself and irritated with food. I ate all three meals at restaurants, including donuts for breakfast again (aack!).  It should be noted that I did haul myself to the grocery store to replenish healthy things in my fridge and make a meal and a snack for the week.

At no point over this 3-4 day slide did I exercise, which would be a healthy move and give me extra points for eating. I've also been neglecting my water intake.

Today I weighed in, and I had gained a pound.***

Of course I did with a weekend that looked like that.

Today, I stopped at BoJangles for breakfast because I had kind of overslept.****  I stuck with the lunch I brought, but swerved for a Little Caesar's pizza on the way home. That was not in the plan.

The bad thing is WW has a plan for you to be able to splurge.  You're given your regular daily points, but you're also give 49 weekly points to use as you see fit. During this slide, I flew through that allotment.

I'm sad by how quickly I was able to fall off track, which makes me not want to work hard. I don't want to try really hard for a time just to give up and gain it all back. I mean, isn't that what happened after TWO YEARS of trying hard? I just gained it all stinking back.

This is probably too many words and you've stopped reading, but this is my thoughts. I want to be better at documenting the highs and the lows, as I think in the past I've shied away from blogging about the hard times.  You know, it just makes one feel too vulnerable.  Bleh. Who wants to be vulnerable? Anyway, I probably should've written this post earlier and maybe it would've helped me subjugate the slide a little faster. Also, then it would've been shorter.

Thoughts?


*It should be noted that I helped my own self to the wine and chocolate cake, knowing full-well that I had no points left for the day. It was in no way forced upon me by said friends.  
**I had responsibly added peanut butter back into my diet sometime earlier this year, with the strict rule to never eat it straight from the jar, ESPECIALLY WHILE SITTING ON THE COUCH WATCHING TV. Until Saturday, I had adhered to both of those rules.
***Last Monday, my first official weigh-in with WW showed that I had lost 6.5 pounds in one week. That large amount of weight can be typical with your first week back on track, I've observed.
****I don't ever oversleep. I wake up between 6:30 and 7 every day. But sometimes (pretty rarely) I refuse to get out of bed, where it is warm and comfortable and start my day. Today was one of those days.

Guest Blog From My Dad

My dad does not write a regular blog, but he does write a weekly inspirational email for all the managers in his company called the Monday Morning Memo.

Recently, his inspiration for the post was none other than me. His favorite middle daughter.  :) The post was so good, he sent it to an outside company he works with for employee recognition and rewards. They liked it enough to put it on their blog.

So that's where I'm sending you now with this link. To read the post my dad wrote about me (and encouraging your employees) on OC Tanner's website.  It's about how we celebrated Thanksgiving, and it was great.

You should check it out. I think you'll like it. But you can let me know in the comments section below.
www.octanner.com/blog/2012/12/the-power-of-cheer-inspiring-greatness/#.UL0ZeLRz_RU.facebook

Wondering who this guy is I'm posing with? Read the blog. He's Richard. The random stranger who hugged me for my inspirational support.

What's Broken?

After I revealed to you that I have gained back all 97 pounds that I have lost, you might be wondering...What happened, Jill?"*

It's a topic I sure have been giving a lot of thought to for the past several months as I've watched the scale climb back up.

The answer is, "hell, I don't know."

Sometimes I blame the conversation I had with my doctor in April 2011.

Sometimes I blame stress that came from when I changed jobs a few years back in 2010.

Sometimes I blame the constant striving to which I was a slave. Never satisfied with how much I had lost or how I had changed, but always trying to lose more to make it to the goal.

Sometimes I blame a bit of overconfidence - a "I can eat lots of this ice cream today and be better tomorrow" (without ever actually eating better tomorrow) philosophy that kind of crept up on me.

I'm not sure where this leaves me.  I don't want to work my ass** off again for another two  or three years to just throw it all away. Again. I do know that I work best at this weight loss thing when I'm tracking what I eat (thus the WW sign up). It's a drag, but it's important.  

I guess this is one of those blogs without an answer. All I can do is pray and be watchful of the signs that I'm slipping back into old habits. And maybe try to be more appreciative of the successes I earn along the way instead of always just watching for the next pound to fall of the scale.  And I should focus on the deliciousness of the healthy food I am eating (fruits and veggies!), instead of the food I'm not eating. And try not to restrict myself from certain foods completely, thus making me go coo-coo for them when I allow myself to taste them.  And remember that I am awesome, no matter what I weigh. Just more at risk for serious health things and harder to fit into airplane seats.  

Well, there you go, I guess the blog has a few answers after all. 

*You may not be wondering that at all. You may not think about me all that much when you are not talking directly to me or reading my blog or perusing my pictures and statuses on fb. I don't know. I don't know what you do.  It was just a blog intro, all right?

**Sorry for the foul language. I feel the situation warrants it.

Color Run 2012

While I will totally be filing the Color Run 2012 post under "Race Reports", I wouldn't really classify it as a race. Full disclosure: it was more of a party.

First, I was in no way expecting to run the whole thing.  I expected there to be too much of a crowd, plus my training kind of fell apart toward the end and I wasn't ready for 3.1 miles.  I was just there to have fun and I did.  Mainly because I had 15 of some of my most favorite people doing it with me:

I really love these people. Here we are still white.

We got up early, we carpooled in various configurations, we wore white.  We joined a huge throng of other all white people (dressed in white, that is) and moved from the parking lots to the gate of Lowe's Motor Speedway.

I wore a tutu and a white wig.
The wig was a genius move, plus:
my dream of running in a tutu= check!

Alyssa after the Yellow Station.

The start line felt like a dance party.  They were letting waves go every five minutes.  When it was our turn to go, we all took off running.  Those of our group who were serious about running (the Pavs, Jess, Daniel, Elvi) took off right away.  The rest of us attempted to stick together, but that proved hard with the crowds and the excitement, so we broke off into two groups.

At each color station (there were only 4), we stopped and walked as close as we could to the color throwers. We wanted to get as much color as possible. They tell you to shut your mouth in the Color Run tips, but I kept forgetting and would scream through the whole color station. After each color station we would take pictures of each other.

Here's the thing, though.  The color is just dust.  It gets sprinkled on you, but then you run off and it kind of flows away with the wind.  When we got to finish I was slightly disappointed in the amount of color I had absorbed.

But then at the finish line (which is a giant dance party, at least for someone like me who can't stand still when there's a good beat on), they had Color Throws every 10 minutes.  Each runner got a packet of color in their race bag and every 10 minutes they would have a coordinated throw where everyone would toss their colored powder in the air at the same time.  That was beautiful and we all ended up much more colored.  We all just hung out dancing and taking pictures and waiting for the next color throw for a super long time. It was great.

That's about it for the recap. Here are some pics for you to enjoy:

Most of our group during a color throw.

If you're wondering, the color washed right out of my clothes, except for the armpits of my shirt where I sweated. Apparently sweat makes the color stick. So now my color run shirt has blue armpits for all time. I haven't done anything with my wig or tutu, which both kind of look just gray now. I'm just not sure how to go about cleaning either of them.

Back to Square One

On Monday I weighed in after Thanksgiving and traveling and generally having no self-control, knowing there would not be a pleasant number on the scale.

I was correct.

In fact, the number on the scale was one pound higher than it was when I started the weight loss journey at the end of July in 2009. Yep, friends, I have gained back every pound of those 97 that I lost, plus one to grow on (poorly placed pun, sorry).

I had been thinking for awhile that I was going to have to start tracking my food again soon.  When I'm not tracking what I eat, I eat whatever I want. Unfortunately, what I want at any given time usually involves cookies, take out and ice cream.  And so I gain weight.

I knew this was coming, so when I saw that number on the scale on Monday,  I knew it was time to start tracking again. I chose Weight Watchers this time, and I signed up with the online system the same day.  I had to pay money to do this.  You may or may not remember that I was with sparkpeople.com through most of the last weight loss journey and it worked.  But I've tried to go back to it several times and have not been able to stick with it.

I decided to try Weight Watchers because I had to pay for it and because it's a new system for me to learn, both of which I hope will keep me interested. I HATED the first two days and felt hungry all the time.  Don't worry, the rest of the week went well.  I figured out what I can eat (unlimited amounts of fruits and veggies!) and what I can't eat much of (high carb and high fat stuff) and stopped feeling so sorry for myself.

So, while the week and this blog started off with kind of a downer, things are looking up.  I've been exercising and trying new healthy foods and drinking lots of water.  Things are good.  And kind of surprisingly, I found myself thinking yesterday that I'm feel more like myself than I have in months.  Despite the attitude I've had the last few months, I think that working hard for a big goal and not being afraid of a little sweat is more me than I ever realized before.

Weight Watchers has you set small goals, and when you achieve them, you set new goals. My first goal is 16 pounds, and I weigh in on Mondays.  I hope you'll join me on my (next) weight loss journey!

Things I can not believe I did (or did not do this week)
Only ate out twice.
NEVER ate breakfast out.
Made and consumed scrambled eggs

Things I learned this week:
Don't be too lazy to pull out a cutting board.
The tiny frying pan does have a purpose: cooking egg dishes!
Fruits and veggies are my friend

PS Check out this amazing omelet I made today. Spinach, feta and tomato!

Look at photo! It looks professional. I should
totally become a food blogger.

The Color Run

Guess what I'm doing on Saturday morning?  This:

The Color Run! It's a 5k where they douse you with a different paint color every 1k.  You ended up covered in multi-colored day-glo paint.  I'm doing it with a bunch of my crazy wonderful friends, and I'm so excited!  

I even spent yesterday making my own tutu to wear! It's long been a dream of mine to wear a tutu during a race.  You may think that's strange. I'm certainly not a girly-girl.  But something about wearing a tutu while running says to me "I can run this race while wearing a frilly get-up, I am so BA." Anyway, I've long had the tutu-wearing dream and the Color Run seems like the perfect opportunity.

So be sure to come back over the weekend to see the update complete with pictures of my crew at the Charlotte Color Run!

In the mean time, here are some pictures I stole from the Color Run's website.

Til then...stay colorful!

Bridget Jones' Diary

Last night I watched Bridget Jones' Diary with a few friends. It's one of my top three favorite movies and some of them had never seen it before.

If you've never seen it I would, of course, suggest you watch it. It's a circa 2001 classic of a 32-year-old singleton searching for love in a world full of smug marrieds assuming she's a career girl (she's not really. I mean she has a job but is not career-minded) who just won't "settle down." Perhaps a typical romantic comedy, but it's British, set in London and features a funny, loveable and plump heroine with an internal dialogue, so it was above average for me.

I fell in love with this movie when it came out in 2001. Back then I was only 21, a perpetually single college student with a weight problem who didn't really know what do with her career but thought it might be one where I would"fanny about with press releases." (quote from the movie). I identified with Bridget for these reasons, and it's been my favorite movie ever since.

I hadn't actually watched it in years, but it was still my standard answer to the "What's your favorite movie?" question.  Yesterday, I was really excited to share it with my friends, and I was almost giddy laughing at all the funny parts just slightly before they came funny. I was glad to know that I still love it.

But it got me thinking. What if I hadn't made Bridgette a heroine of mine at 21, would things be different now?  'Cause now I'm 32, just like her, and I'm still in the same place, dating-wise and weight-wise. It's like I was growing up to be her.  (I might be slightly ahead, career-wise).

I don't mean this to be a heavy post.  It just made me wonder about who I choose to be my role models and what kind of influence they have over my thoughts and habits.  I'm not saying Bridget Jones was necessarily a bad role model. She's quite funny and sometimes ridiculous, which are always traits I strive to attain.

Who is your role model?  Do you think a favorite movie can influence your life or thoughts?

PS I've had a remarkable Saturday thus far.  I finished a 2nd great book of the week, got caught up on my television from the week, received a remarkable text from my niece and sucessfully ate breakfast at home for the fifth day in a row!

PPS Someone saw I used the word "meta" in this post and asked me what it meant.  I could not explain it and then began to wonder if I really knew what it meant and if not, had I used it correctly? So I looked it up on Urban Dictionary and here is the definition:

A term, especially in art, used to characterize something that is characteristically self-referential. 

"So I just saw this film about these people making a movie, and the movie they were making was about the film industry..."
"Dude, that's so meta. Stop before my brain explodes."

Then I realized I should never have doubted myself, because I have a resplendent and indefatigable vocabulary.

Thankful Things: HOT DOG!

Guys, I'm sure I have lots of things and people to be thankful for today.

But really, I have time to think of none of those wonderful things. Because all I can think about is how thankful I am for this:

Thanks to my friend Cara, I AM LIVING MY DREAM OF BEING DRESSED AS A HOT DOG!

After learning that it was my dream to be a hot dog for Halloween, Cara saw this Hot Dog Hat while she was shopping last weekend and got it for me.  It's beautiful, whimsical and it keeps my head warm. It allows me to be a hot dog without all of the constraints of actually being a hot dog.  It's perfect.  I will wear it everywhere*. Here are a few more pictures for your viewing pleasure.

With Cara, who found this magnificent treasure.

Guys, I ate a hotdog while wearing a hot dog. So meta.
Also, how jealous is that woman in the background?? So jealous.

Hot Dog Hat from above.  ROCK ON!

I know you can not top the Hot Dog Hat, but you can try. What are you thankful for this week?  Or, if you can't think of anything, you can just tell me how much you love my hat.


*For employment purposes, I will, sadly, not wear the Hot Dog Hat to work.

Then Things I'm Thinking About This Tuesday

1) In four years, I hope I remember, I want to be a volunteer at a polling place.  I think I could have a lot of fun with that.

2) In other voting news, I want to start a tradition of watching this video every election day.


3) Changing the subject, but my dad told me that if I used Vick's Vapo Rub my cold would go away overnight.  I was desperate enough to try it. He was wrong.

4) I ran again yesterday! After two weeks off and with a slight cold, it was not exactly easy, but I did it.

5) I thought I needed new curtains because they were really dusty and I tried to wash them once and they almost fell apart. But yesterday I just vacuumed them with the hose on the vaccuum and voila! they are perfect again.

6) Once Upon a Time is really good this season.

7) I have today off for election day.  Next week is a full week, but then after that is Thanksgiving and only a two-day work week!  Awesome.

8)It's my dream to one day be a hotdog for Halloween.  If any of you see any hotdog costumes on sale, that don't look super cheap, consider buying one for me, please.  I'll totally pay you back.

9) I made non-instant oatmeal this morning. It was just okay.

10) I read a great book this weekend.  Tell the Wolves I'm Home.  I'm not a very adept book reviewer, but there was just something about the way she told this story that made it really great. I wish she had written more books.

Thankful Thursdays: THE RETURN!

One of  the things I missed during my blogger absence was my Thankful Thursdays posts. I mean, how great is it to sit and recap all of the great things in your life on a regular basis?  Answer: so great.
Here's what's got my thankful up this week:

Halloween & Costumes
I love the costume planning and execution. I love the parties. I love the food. I love coming to work in a costume and finding excuses to make deliveries around campus to show off my costume. I love that people know enough now to stop by my office to see what I've come up with this year.

Party hostess Mary Poppins and myself as the U.S. Quarter.

My co-workers

My Church

I've gone through periods in recent years when I've pulled away from my church community and even "shopped around" for a new church (mainly because I live 30 minutes away from church and that drive started to get to me). I realized a few months ago that this was silly.  Good Shepherd is my church home, and I am an important part of the community there.  I think what I've been learning is that church is what you make of it. If you just attend regular service and don't get involved in the ministries, you're missing out on so muc,h and it's no one's fault but your own. I've rededicated myself to attendance and finding new avenues of service at my church.

My Half-Birthday!

It may seem silly, but half birthdays are fun too. Today is mine. Feel free to leave half birthday well wishes in the comments or even send presents! I'm coolio with that.

Halloween Episodes of My Favorite TV Shows

These episodes always have either excellently crafted or extremely clever costumes, which is what Halloween must be like when you have a full writing staff and costume designers at your beck and call. There were a lot of good ones this, year, but I think Nick from the New Girl's Bee Arthur was genius.

Disney is Calling
This week I booked a vacation with my sister and her family of five to go visit Mickey Mouse and all his friends in January. I can't wait to experience Disney with my nieces and nephew!

 

Lots of great things happening this week. What are you thankful for?

Skeered

Last week when I wrote this post, I had come off a great couple weeks of running.  And I was looking to continue it.  So even though I knew I had a crazy busy week coming up, I took time to schedule my running workouts for the coming week and was confident I would follow through.

See, I knew that Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I would have absolutely no time to run and probably very little energy.  So, being a proactive sort, I decided I would run Sunday, Thursday and Saturday to still get in three workouts for the week.

Sunday, I completed day one of week five of my C25K program.  I was on track with my plan.  Then Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday hit and I lost all motivation.  To say those three days were busy is an understatement.  They were physically exhausting, as I spent about 10-12 hours each day on my feet and "running"* to and fro.  They were also mentally exhausting and stressful.

Thursday and Friday came and went without running.  I was tired and still a residual sort of busy.  Saturday and Sunday came and I was just plain lazy, so they also went without running.  I felt guilty for not running, but not enough to tie on some shoes, apparently.

But today is Monday. The great "day to get it back on track;" a clean slate.  And yet I didn't run again.
I have no excuses for my behavior today. I was well rested, recovered from my busy week last week.  I did have a lot going on at work, but that's the norm.  Everything I was doing could've waited while I took a gym-lunch break. But I didn't.

I know what it is.  I'm skeeered. I'm afraid of going out there and not being able to do it.  Of losing stamina and mental strength that I've been building up (slowly) this fall. I'm not sure what else, but I do know I'm afraid.

It sounds stupid, but it's the truth. I'd love to pick up with my week five workouts tomorrow. My gym bag is already packed.  But honestly, I don't know if I will. I thought that writing this post would make me feel silly enough about these thoughts that I'd be charged up to run tomorrow.  That's not the case.  I guess I'll just have to see what tomorrow brings.

*I use the term "running" here loosely. I was wearing sneakers and did occasionally move at higher than typical speeds, but it should probably be more accurately described as "walking with a purpose."

Singin' and Runnin'

I have been really happy lately.
Like unexpectedly, out of nowhere happy.

Not that I was necessarily unhappy before. But you know, you're living life day to day and life is good, it's fine, but maybe not sunshine-bursting-out-of-you-happiness.

Anyway, I've been thinking about where are all of this happiness is coming from, and I'm blaming two things: singing and running.

I joined the choir at my church last month. I can not explain how much I love singing with this group. Clearly, I've always loved to sing, but this is more than that. Maybe it's partly because it's challenging, partly because it's a beautiful blending of the different voices, partly because it's in praise of the King of Majesty, and partly because it's just fun. I'm not sure why I never joined before, except that I maybe thought choir was for old people. No more of that nonsense thinking. Just happiness and singing.

Second, I've been back on track with running for almost three weeks now. After taking most of the summer off from running and then struggling to stick with my running work outs for a month or two, it feels good to be back. If you've ever read this blog before you might remember that I have sort of a love-hate relationship with running. Let me assure you that putting running as one of the reasons for my bursting happiness does NOT mean that I now love running. On the contrary, I still dread each run, and it is still hard, physically and mentally, for me. Almost every step I take, I'm convincing or tricking myself into continuing to run. But I've been really lucky (?) the last three weeks in that I have completed each work out exactly when I've set out to do it exactly how I've meant to do it. And that sense of accomplishment, combined with the endorphins released while running, have been contributing factors to the happiness.

So that's my current recipe for happiness. What's been making you happy lately?

Bloggity Updates

So, the blog is back!

Sort-of. Let me explain.

I can't really explain why I stopped blogging in the first place. Lots of reasons I guess. I put a lot of pressure on myself to update regularly, and that both took a lot of time and became difficult to continue to come up with new, relevant topics.

But also, to be honest, I wasn't doing so hot at the weight loss journey that I built the blog on and didn't feel like I could continue to spout "wisdom" that I wasn't following. Right? No fakers, please.

There have been a few times that I've missed the blog as a means of expression, and lots of times that I've missed your comments. I realize now that removing the url from the web may have been a bit drastic.

So, the blog is back with a few changes. I will not be updating regularly, just when the mood strikes.  It may not be often.  Also, I will be writing about whatever strikes my fancy, it may not, and actually probably won't, be weight loss related.

I hope you can live with that.  Talk to you again soon.


PS Two things I am in love with right now in pop culture: 
1) The movie, Pitch Perfect. I laughed a lot and continue to laugh about it over a week later. 
2) The tv show, The Mindy Project. I want to be friends with her.

Life is Good!

Have you ever been so full of joy, diet coke and lawn-maintenance-induced-exercise-endorphins that you want to shout it from the rooftops?  No? That's just me? Okay, I can deal with that.

After an exceedingly stressful beginning of June, the last couple of weeks have been so rosy they could almost be deemed "maroon." Let me count the ways* (roughly in chronological order).

• I love wine bottle (or tequila bottle) torches.  Aren't they beautiful?

• I finally made it to see my friend Glenda's baby for the first time since he was born. He was beyond adorable at four months.  See photographic evidence below.

Look at happy Spencer and happy Glenda!

• Some of the stress from the beginning of June was due to a two-day photo shoot I was organizing at work.  Turns out, all of the hard work I put in to organize it paid off as it went off exceedingly well.
• They opened one of those self-serve frozen yogurt stores in my neighborhood.  Ours is called Orange Leaf and I love it a lot.
• I spent one full day floating in the waves laughing with two immeasurably great friends while the sun watched over us. We got great color.

These are my friends. We laugh a lot when we are together. So much.

• I started reading Gone with the Wind for the 2nd time. I'm alternating between loving and hating Scarlett O'Hara, but either way she is a very rich character.
• I've seen bunches of movies lately, some good (Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks was better than expected thanks to love-of-my-life Zac Effron) and some not so good (Seeking a Friend for the End of the World...more like Seeking a Friend to Rescue Me from this Movie Theatre)
• I re-arranged my bedroom.  My proclivity for this activity is inherited from my mother, if you're wondering.
• I registered for the Charlotte COLOR RUN.  More on this later. 
• I watched my best friend consume a hot dog in three bites.  I giffed it for her and she could sit and watch the gif for days.  Now you can too.  Although, I realize it is exceeding large, here. I have no idea how I did that.

• I went to Atlanta with my friends, the fives, and saw my beautiful and funny friend Taylor.  We basically laughed all weekend.  We are very funny people.
• I reconnected with my youth by going to the Braves game.  I was such a huge Braves fan between 1994 and 2002.  I had almost forgotten how fun it is to cheer on the bravos and yell out baseball-y things from the bleachers.

The Fives at the Braves

• As a bonus, I got to see my mom, dad and 4-year-old niece while I was in ATL. Caitlin entertained me by telling me about the beautiful wedding dress and crown she gets to wear when she's in another aunt's wedding in a few weeks. She then informed me she would be wearing the wedding dress so she could marry her cousin Jack (the ring bearer). She may be slightly confused about what exactly is going down that day.
• I went to this sunflower field. Sunflowers make me happy.  I'm hoping to take others to the field to introduce them to the happy sunflowers tomorrow and this weekend.  Showing sunflowers to others makes me even happier.

I TOOK THIS PICTURE! THESE SUNFLOWERS ARE HUGE!

• PERHAPS ONE OF THE MOST EXCITING THINGS: I released this video.  I love it, mostly because I love my way-more-talented-than-me co-stars, Luis and Cara.  We're trying to make it go viral, so feel free to watch it again once more (or a thousand times more).Or share it with your friends, family, neighbors and any small children you know (small children seem to especially love it). I actually spend a lot of time thinking about how to get more people to watch it. When I'm not thinking about that, I'm thinking about what song we should do next. So if you've seen me the last few days or in the next couple of days, just know I may be talking to you about something else, but I'm actually only thinking about this video. Fair disclosure.

• We got our pictures back from the photographer (these are the pictures from the photo shoot mentioned in the first bullet), and they are so beautiful and they make me fall in love with my school all over again. I'm proud of the pictures, and I'm proud of my campus.
• All S.C. state employees are getting a raise this month!  Our first cost-of-living raise in years!
• I HAD A DAY OFF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WEEK. Glorious.

I saw no fireworks today, but I'm not concerned by that. My philosophy when it comes to fireworks is, if you've seen one, you've seen them all.  I know some people get really excited about fireworks, so I hope I've stepped on no toes. I'm not anti-fireworks like I am anti-Olympics. I just don't have to see fireworks on a hot and steamy July night.

What's been great in your life lately?  And, perhaps even more important HOW GREAT IS OUR CALL ME MAYBE VIDEO??????**



*two things you should know about me. I love lists and abbreviations. Bunches.
**I'm sorry for shouting so much in this post.  It's all that joy, endorphins from lawn care and diet coke. 

Call Me, Maybe?

In my absence from blogging, I have been keeping up with some creative outlets...including being part of a Call Me Maybe video!  You may have seen a Call Me Maybe video before, or maybe not, but either way, you won't want to miss this one.




Thanks to my co-stars Luis and Cara, plus Elvi for her behind the scenes work!

I hope you enjoy it.  Feel free to share with your friends!

I'm Still Alive

Thanks to all those who asked after the blog in its absence. Your thoughts are appreciated.

I wanted to write this post, because I'm going to continue to take time off from blogging, but I don't want my last post about The Rules, to sit up there forever. It wasn't a particularly insightful or helpful.

I have enjoyed being a non-blogger again. I had many reasons for taking my break and actually when I started this post four sentences ago, I thought I was going to use this chance to explain those reasons to you in detail.  Then I realized that's probably not all that interesting, and you don't really need to know. Your lives will not be affected by me going into detail on why I'm taking a break from blogging.

I do, however, want you to know that I'm not using the break from blogging as an excuse to go crazy with my eating habits or give up exercising completely.  I'm still monitoring what I eat and exercising regularly, though perhaps not quite as frequently as I have at times in the past.

But here it's been nearly a month since my last post, and I think if I were still writing daily it would be more of the same thoughts that I've been regurgitating regularly on the blog over the past two years. (i.e. running is hard. I love ice cream; but I wish I loved vegetables so eating healthy would be easy, etc.)

FYI: I decided not to do the tri I was eyeing in June (it was last weekend), because my running has been slim to non-existent lately. I think it's getting to hot for it lately.  I'm still considering a late summer one, but not if I don't get my running but in gear.

So all that to say, I'm doing well, and I miss you guys (and I'm glad you've missed me).  I'm not back to regular scheduled blog mode, but I will check in here from time to time.  I think I just want to enjoy living life, rather than blogging about it.  I also want to make sure that when I blog, I've got something worth saying.

The Rules

If you've been reading this blog for any length of time, you've noticed that I have a set of rules that I follow when I am "on track."

They include:

• No breakfast at fast food places.
• No eating out on weekdays.
• Three liters of water a day.
• No more than two diet cokes a day.
• Exercise 5-6 days a week.
• A daily calorie intake that concurs with my desire to lose weight (the actual number varied)

In the past, having these rules worked well for me. They gave me boundaries. When I stuck to them, I lost weight.

However, having these rules has drawn sharp lines in my life.  I'm either succeeding, when I'm following the rules, or failing, when not following the rules.  Success leads to feeling confident, in control, happy.  Failure, well, failure sucks.

How did my confidence and my happy become about whether I follow a few rules that I set for myself? Why did I draw these lines in the sand?

I realize I need to lose weight and that I set these rules to help me with that.  But they've become too all-important.  So now I'm going back to the drawing board to figure out what being healthy is all about.  And I'm thinking it's going to more than just a set of stupid rules that I find hard to follow.  I'll let you know when I figure it out.