It's a topic I sure have been giving a lot of thought to for the past several months as I've watched the scale climb back up.
The answer is, "hell, I don't know."
Sometimes I blame the conversation I had with my doctor in April 2011.
Sometimes I blame stress that came from when I changed jobs a few years back in 2010.
Sometimes I blame the constant striving to which I was a slave. Never satisfied with how much I had lost or how I had changed, but always trying to lose more to make it to the goal.
Sometimes I blame a bit of overconfidence - a "I can eat lots of this ice cream today and be better tomorrow" (without ever actually eating better tomorrow) philosophy that kind of crept up on me.
I'm not sure where this leaves me. I don't want to work my ass** off again for another two or three years to just throw it all away. Again. I do know that I work best at this weight loss thing when I'm tracking what I eat (thus the WW sign up). It's a drag, but it's important.
I guess this is one of those blogs without an answer. All I can do is pray and be watchful of the signs that I'm slipping back into old habits. And maybe try to be more appreciative of the successes I earn along the way instead of always just watching for the next pound to fall of the scale. And I should focus on the deliciousness of the healthy food I am eating (fruits and veggies!), instead of the food I'm not eating. And try not to restrict myself from certain foods completely, thus making me go coo-coo for them when I allow myself to taste them. And remember that I am awesome, no matter what I weigh. Just more at risk for serious health things and harder to fit into airplane seats.
Well, there you go, I guess the blog has a few answers after all.
*You may not be wondering that at all. You may not think about me all that much when you are not talking directly to me or reading my blog or perusing my pictures and statuses on fb. I don't know. I don't know what you do. It was just a blog intro, all right?
**Sorry for the foul language. I feel the situation warrants it.
I agree. You ARE awesome.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't the only one who struggles with weight. Before I started at WU in 2008, I lost about 70 pounds. Then, in the course of working here for four years, I gained almost all of it back. There are hundreds of reasons why it happened, but it all boils down to eating too much and moving too little. For some people, I think weight is simply a constant struggle. It sucks and it's not fair, but that's how it is.
ReplyDeleteI do think about you all the time! : )
ReplyDeleteI'm excited to see you setting and accomplishing goals again, however that looks.