Yes, I've been sick (with a cold, not West Nile* virus!). Yes, it has lasted a long time. Yes, it means I have not been able to sleep well for several nights. Yes, that means I've been exhausted and cranky with no energy. No, I have not had one ounce of motivation. No, coming back from a Christmas diet-break has not been as easy or effective as coming back from the Thanksgiving diet-break. No, I have not been eating a healthy breakfast or enough fruits and vegetables or drinking adequate amounts of water this week.
But worse than all of the above is the way I have been feeling, thinking, talking and blogging lately. I have been very "woe-is-me" and very unable to "see the light at the end of the tunnel." I knew my attitude sucked, and I knew the whole time I just needed to adjust my thinking, but I couldn't do it. I didn't have the energy or the desire to shift my thinking or my eating. I'm blaming the sickness. I think you know that is not like me.
I'm still not back to an inspirational, one hundred percent "healthy living or bust" mentality. Nor am I back up to my normal energy levels. But I am sick of hearing myself complain, so here's what I have been doing right:
- I've worked out three days in a row, running twice and lifting weights once.
- I've eaten the lunch I brought from home three days in a row.
- Today I drank water like I'd been walking in a desert and I'd just found an oasis.
Uh, I think that's all I've got right now. Oh wait, here's another one!
- I'm eating dinner at home tonight!
Anyway, several people have asked how I'm doing today and here's what I'm saying: I'm on track to getting back on track. A few days ago I wasn't sure I was ever going to get back to normal and thought I'd just live the rest of my life a crazy mess. Now, I'm thinking that might not be true. Well, I guess that really depends on your definition of a crazy mess.
*Is West Nile a current cultural reference? Swine Flu also seems out-of-date...is there a more relevant disease circulating these days?
PS I hope I have not offended any of you who may be cliche sensitive with my overabundant use of cliches in this and other blog posts authored by me.
ReplyDeleteI don't think there were THAT many cliches!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I think West Nile Virus and Swine Flu are both out-dated... I can't think of any sicknesses that are en vogue right now.
I am glad you are on track to getting back on track. : )
Love to hear you are fighting the funk! My friend at work asked me a couple of days ago, " Have you read Jill's blog lately?" I said yes, but asked what specifically she meant. She talked about how down you seem and that is what she has been struggling with in December on her weight loss goals. I started eating better this week. I don't have a set plan yet, but can celebrate eating my lunch from home every day except for today for a business meeting (but I made healthy choices). I also have increased my water intake immensely. Enough about me...I have two inspirations as to why I have even attempted to be healthier. You and my friend Kelly at work who has also helped me learn about eating healthier. Please do not give up and by all means, keep writing this blog. Your struggles make you human, like us blog-followers, and while we may be bummed that you are struggling, we can relate. I wonder sometimes if you know how many people you have affected with your writing. This comment is so long, I am thinking about blogging myself! Anyways, thanks Jill. You are awesome!
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