While I love rest and reading and copious amounts of television, I know now that it's all best in moderation. I am not made to be cooped up inside! I was going stir crazy not being able to leave the house*, as I believe my roommate would attest.
Plus, it was like my own private episode of Temptation Island (wasn't that a bad reality show a few years back?) Just lying around all day left very little for me to think about except what kind of foods I had in my pantry, and how it would be great to eat them. It didn't help that the beef stroganoff that I made this week was kind of disgusting.
Anyway, it made for a pretty difficult first three days back on the wagon, but I persevered. This afternoon, I was on the verge of losing control when I decided to have a Kit Kat bar. It was purchased during a slightly weak moment at the cash register during a weekly shopping a few weeks back. I ate the Kit Kat and logged the calories as a snack. It wasn't enough to make me feel un-deprived, but I was able to walk away from the kitchen after that. I was still pretty bored, though. So, when a friend called to see if I could go out to dinner I jumped at the chance. Getting out of the house and getting good food? Yes, please!
So while I usually try not to eat out on weeknights, I feel this was a special circumstance. You know what? Even with the Kit Kat and the unscheduled meal out, where I was able to choose responsibly, I stayed within my calorie range for the day! It's slightly unbelievable, but I double checked my calorie counts when I got home. Now, I feel much more normal and ready for another good day tomorrow!
*I actually did leave the house for extended gym sessions both Tuesday and Wednesday, but those hours were just drops in the bucket. I suppose I could've gone somewhere else, but didn't really have anywhere to go and didn't want to spend any money.
I just want to say how awesome and HUGE I think it is that you had a night where you had an unscheduled meal out, you were able to choose responsibly and you stayed within your calorie count while "having a normal life kind of night"...I think that is a glimpse into your future my friend, that NORMAL isnt so unattainable for you...(note, I'm only saying the word normal because I know you like it/use it; I however strongly dislike the word:))--Cindy
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