It won't always be easy

The first day was great.
The second day was harder.
The third stunk.

I'm still not having trouble "Just Saying No" to bread or processed foods* really. But I have been consistently hungry for two days.  And extremely tired. The tiredness, granted, is not Primal's fault, but does make it harder to feel excited about this new way of eating that I've decided to embark on for the REST OF MY LIFE. And harder to think clearly and determine a healthy, filling way to eat.

Last night, I lay on my couch watching Netflix, because I was too tired to go for a walk or mow the lawn.** I had eaten dinner but was still hungry. I had been hungry all day, so I had a low tolerance. I tried to think of something healthy to eat, but could only think "I'm sick of all berries, smoothies, veggies and eggs."  Plus, did I mention I was tired?  So I never got up and never ate anything and eventually went to bed hungry.

And this was after the disaster that was dinner.  I came home from work sooo hungry.  Knew the portion of pork roast and salad that I had planned for dinner was not going to cut it.  Decided to make these pancakes and a smoothie,***  in addition to the pork roast and salad. But I couldn't decide what to make first so I put a pan on the stove to start warming up while I made the smoothie.

The smoothie was a disaster from the get go. I did not get my ratio of frozen berries to milk right, which means I had basically a solid to drink instead of a liquid at the end. I couldn't get all of the berries to blend (because there were too many), so I had to keep stopping the blender and pushing the berries down toward the blade.  Finally it finished and it wouldn't pour out of the blender into my waiting cup and bottle because it was so thick.  I scraped it out messily with a spoon. Then I went to take a nice gulp and the whole solid mass slid from the bottom of the cup at once with a kerplat!  I ended up not being able to see out of my glasses and looked like this:

And then I rushed to get my phone, so I could
capture this moment for you guys.  And
my phone is still sticky, BTW. Also, I think
my nose is crooked. See how my glasses sit at
an angle? Or maybe my ears are uneven. Or maybe
just the force from the smoothie kerplat!
knocked them askew. Mystery.

So I cleaned up the mess and then decided to move back to the pancakes. The minute I put the "batter"**** down, it seared into a blackened mess.  Unedible. I had had the pan "warming" on high for like 15 minutes and it was way too hot! I let that cool and did the dishes from the smoothie.  After it cooled I scraped the mess off the pan and tried to drop the batter for the last pancake.  But the pan was still too hot and it instantly burned again.  Plus, I maybe did not do a great job at mashing the banana so the "batter" was more like eggs with some lumps of banana mixed in.  I will not be trying this recipe again for awhile, to say the least.

In the end, I resorted back to the originally planned pork roast and salad and had just a few cautious sips of the smoothie before putting the rest in the fridge for today. And I will be drinking it through a straw today for safety's sake. It's become a bit more liquid in the interim.

Every day won't be like day three.  That's what I've got to tell myself, right?


*I maybe should've mentioned my one caveat to the "no processed foods" rule: Diet Coke. I know I will need to give it up eventually, and I am weening myself off of it right now, but it is still being consumed. By me. Daily. But only once a day, which is progress.
**in my defense it was my only night available this week for such laziness, as I have packed my week with walking dates and other engagements.
***I needed a smoothie pre-ready for breakfast today, so that was killing two birds with one stone.
****I put "batter" in quotes because, can it really be called batter when it is just eggs and banana?